That Smile, is Worthless

This post was originally written when I was in the 10th grade. It was during christmas time and Secret Santa :D Unfortunately I did finish typing it that day BUT I FORGOT TO PUBLISH IT! *cries* Thankfully my friend (Ujju - The person to whom my gift was in this post ^_^) reminded me today in FB and I was damn sure I had this posted until I saw it in my drafts. ._. 
Anyway hope you like it! ^_^

Okay. So Secret Santa got over and I got my gift! :) It is a pair of nail polish, light pink and black. And they are totally awesome! I have those same colours on my thumb [thumb alone because of school!] along with white. It looks like a cool gradient [even though my first thought was to put it that way] with the colour mix: White, Light Pink and Black. Lol looking at it makes my thumb look like it is in some fancy (joker) dress competition! :D But nevertheless, it looks really cool. And for all of that, thank you Farheen :)

Now let’s turn the tables over to the person to whom I gave the gift :) It was to Ujju, my dear bench mate :). Well just because she is my bench mate didn’t mean that I couldn’t place the gift without her knowledge. Let’s just say that luck was with me that day and she was sitting behind me while I was sitting with my bff, Pratyusha! :) Omg I love to sit with her! She cracks jokes like hell and can make you giggle through a whole class! She is also my mode of entertainment ‘cause the teachers just love to pick her no matter where she is! :D It’s all part of the fun. Nothing serious! :P

Coming back as I’d mentioned earlier my gift to Ujju was a pink Cinnamoroll plushie and a fab white purse which, I knew that she had to like it. And she did.
I managed to keep the gift in her bag when she went out and almost the whole class saw me and I hoped against that they wouldn’t tell her. Successfully they didn’t.

Later it sucked. We had a boring leg aching assembly on math ‘cause it was Math Day that day and I had to wait for hours until she opened her present.

Eventually she did. Well actually she and I got our presents on the same day so we planned to open it in the 4th period, language. And so we did.

When she opened her gift, she smiled so big that my heart glowed with pleasure and I too smiled secretly because I knew instantly that she loved the gift. And no one could have ever bought that smile. My identity had to still remain a secret (yep! I hadn’t revealed her that I was her SS! :D – but I had to reveal it later for a reason).

The Cinnamoroll plushie was pink in colour despite its original being blue & white (the shop did have blue & white, but it was dirty. Pink one was clean) and she began calling it ‘Pinky’ her new ‘Boyfriend’. That did it. I couldn’t stand and see the real facts being faked.

Cinnamoroll is a girl puppy which has the ability to fly using its big floppy ears. And I couldn’t bear it being called ‘Boyfriend’ (yes that is how I am). ‘Girlfriend’ was fine. But I couldn’t tell that to her yet.

So in the lunch break she went with Cinnamoroll (please I like it to be called by its original!) to meet her other friends on another section. As soon as they’d seen Cinnamoroll they told, “It was given to you by Tharangni, right?” I didn’t know what Ujju replied but I heard that from her after she met them. And then the volcano burst open and I slipped out my identity and told her the real info about Cinnamoroll.

Finally I felt content and happy for getting to be an awesome SS in my final year[10th grade]. :)

Panache - Live Like There's no Tomorrow

Panache - That's the name of our school festival. It was a two day event which took place on the 20th and 21st December. It's kind of obvious from the tagline of the event that our school was trying to spoof the Mayan predictions, and we did in the most amazing way ever! The festival was hosted by the 11th graders and was attended by the students of 9th-12th grade.

I didn't attend the first day because I got up really late [around 10.30ish] and I didn't feel like going anyway. So I went the next day and reached the school ground by 7.30. I had to reach there early because my friend (Tejasvita) had registered my name for an event, "How I Met your Murderer". Unfortunately the event heads didn't consider our group as a part of the competition on the basis of nothing [that really pissed me off]. So me and Tejasvita registered our names for 100m.
Getting ready for the 100m. I'm the one in super light blue jean
Our class Teacher :D He looks so cute in this, almost like Doremon :D
Tejasvita + Roli's painting which won the 1st prize! :D
I was really happy running for the 100m race! I love running and it had almost been 2 YEARS since I ran. Obviously, my speed was rusty and my take off time was delayed (as usual) but nevertheless, I was happy that I got the opportunity to run a race and feel the wind rushing against my face. ♥

Next up, we headed to Pulse. Pulse was an event in which a video clip will be played (in mute) and you have to enact the scene on your own without the original dialogues. Avneet (my friend) took part in this event and she won!!!
She had to enact the role of Shah Rukh Khan from some movie lol.
RANDOMNESS (L-R : Tejasvita, Roli & VJP)

21/dec/2012 is my class teacher's birthday. So our class bought him a cake and we called sir immediately from school telling there was an emergency etc etc and he rushed immediately. He gave us a politician type welcoming when he saw his cake (chocolate which for the record was DELICIOUS! ~ I was licking only the cream lol) and he cut it happily :) Then he received a gift from Shreya which was a cute pup doll for which he posed really cute poses. Then he received a card from our class in which we all had written him messages and wishes for his birthday. And sir said that, that was his best birthday present and he would treasure it (yay!) :D
PANACHE and events
Sir's Politician Wave lol :D
Yup Yup, everyone gathering for the cake :P
Rawr (Sir's pose + gift)
This is Sir, Doll and Chemistry ma'am. Lol they were so funny! :D
By then it was 11 and we didn't want to stay in the ground because the ground would get fried up due to the heat and I really hate the sun. So me, VJP, Roli & Avneet (all friends) decided to go to Tejasvita's house since it was near the school.

Her house is in Palli Hills and it is freaking amazing! I loved her house! :D
We had tea there (which was made by me! ^_^) and ordered lunch from KFC! :D We spoke about random stuff etc and were at her house till 3.15 and after that we returned to school.
umm yeah... so that's Roli down and me up. :3 This is the only photo with KFC boxes
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Then in school Tejasvita took part in Mr. & Ms. Panache but didn't win :(. By then the heat was really setting in and they had made us sit in the middle of the ground in the hot afternoon without any protection from the scorching heat. God I literally died and whenever we went off the ground to the tents, sir would always tell us to return to the grounds{ (-_-) so pissing }

And then events started getting kinda boring and I really wanted to take some proper portrait shots of people 'cause I'm never around with too many people with my camera at the same time. Also I'm kind of people shy person and that's why I never take too many people photos. And anyway these guys were my friends so they listened to whatever I told them to do. :D

I grabbed the opportunity and took some photos the way I had them pictured exactly in my mind. I made my friends each do an expression and everybody's except VJP's came really good. That's 'cause I seriously don't know what expression would suit her. So I took photo of her eyes, which are AMAZING btw!

Tejasvita - Sadness/Depression
Avneet - Bellatrix - Evil/Vengeance
Roli - Dreamy
Avneet - Dreamy
Roli - Happy
VJP - Eyes
My friends were laughing at me while I was taking this picture lol.
 'cause I had to stand on the bench lol :D
Me - Tired

After this random photo session there was style act (ramp walk), music played by school band and music music music! :D This lasted for about an hour or so. After this the event was slowly wrapping up and we had the last dance in the end! :D

And ohmygod! The last dance was AMAZING! It was literally like "not-end-of-the-world-but-new-beginning" type party and everyone went crazy!
This is my last year of school and I was like I don't wanna miss anything and I just danced like hell and I couldn't believe that I was actually DANCING! Me and my friends don't usually dance. We are the silent types who are just happy chatting away in the corner.
But when the DJ played the music, we all let go of our worries and who we were. We didn't care about anything. We didn't care about the world or Mayans or anything. All we did was live the moment - without any hesitation.
And we loved it! :)
We were all kinda shocked in the end 'cause we never dance and yet we danced like mad retards! :D
It was amazing!
I loved the Last Dance :D

Unfortunately since we all danced like mad retards for the first time, our whole body ached (and it still aches! :( ) and we can't move much around now :D :P

Oh well so much for the end of the world. I enjoyed 21/dec/2012! :D
Too bad it can come only once :P
Lol my shoes after Panache! :D They had become red and are originally blue :D
Oh and finally exams are over and I CAN BLOG! It's almost like I can breathe. But it's only for a short while though. :( Will be gone from January (again) because of Pre-Boards and stuff and then I will have my boards in March.
*sigh* ~ Life
Also visit my friend, Nayan's blog :) here.
P.S: The photos were transferred directly from cam. So no editing done :(

An Unsolved Mystery

Barred by a shell of crystal water,
Touch and feel the wrath and burn.
A doorway to another realm –
Keys to the inner soul.

Barricaded by needle towers,
A blinking moat, missing crocodiles
Light that spins your steps –
And fortunes untold.

Harbouring the vistas of the world
Inside – a divine castle,
A golden pantheon –
And an unconquered land.

Human eyes are an unsolved mystery

I've always been mesmerized by eyes.
I'll be gone till mid December because of my 12th Standard exams. So won't be posting for a while now. :(
Hope you all have a great winter :) :)


The night enveloped by the silent roars of the city,
Tiny crickets sync to the clock.
The lonely sky mesmerized by a scintillating light,
A mystic fragrance sweeps the night.

Footsteps echoed in the lifeless streets,
Grey shadowed people’s dreams,
Lacerating cries of a broken heart,
Against this mellow ignorance, tonight.

The Reason To Live

I close my eyes to make this world disappear
I hope to slip away from reality
I pray for this every year
Why does life weave its story in ambiguity?

The roof over my head is tearing apart
Debris buried long ago - gave way,
Welcoming me to the pain I once bid adieu
Only to roll over my trauma yet again - mon dieu.

Strength can no longer be clasped by fists,
Voices can no longer be heard by ears,
And the truth, blinded by mere ego.

When life can stir up such a nightmare,
Why is it that I have to be the victim of this macabre?

How my Art can change the world.

Few days back, me and my friend were discussing the various challenges posted by SCAD to apply for their scholarship programme. My friend decided to do the Comic Book Series depicting a story on “How my art can change the world”. In order to get inspired she asked me the question, pointing out if the same question was asked at an interview, and at point blank I went speechless and I was not able to even think of what to answer!

Introspecting on my inability to answer I just began to wonder what my art really symbolises.
I recently started going for external art class and even though I’ve just attended 4 classes or so, I’ve actually begun to understand what I want my art to depict.

My art is basically simplicity touched with the appropriate colours. It tries to connect my ideas with everyday objects. True, like every other artist, I want it to send a message to my viewers and peers. But what I really want it to do is add colour to the world.

When I look at the world now, or more precisely India, I can symbolically colour it grey and nothing else. I want my art to colour the grey. I want my art to splash the lives of the grey people with opportunities so that their dreams can also be fulfilled. I want my art to be a helping aid in bringing smiles and granting the people’s wishes.

It may be a clich├ęd idea now. But this is what I want my art to do.
And this is how it will change the world.


Kisses that excite
Smiling - sincere love that haunts
Yet you amuse me
Just a jovial post! :)
Exams are around the corner, so will be on a Hiatus! :)

When the World Came Falling Down

Dancing Waters.
Glistening Leaves.
Fading Lights.
Ghoulish Whispers.

Rain lashed down like heavy pelts,
Clouds hung heavy, ready to drop.
Lightning races across the sky
Sending sparks through the spine.

And the battle began.

Water fought hard against land,
Collapsing – trees, buildings and bridges.
Alert, sent humans to a riot.

The humans scurried –
Like an anthill, annihilated.
Confused – they felt their wrath.
Poison stung at the roots, multiplying everything red.

As the curtain slowly fell,
Rain ceased her symphony.
All that was once, now lost.
Regret resided among hearts, rumbling along with despair.

Timeless Piano

The city buzzed with life
Lights travelling – connecting souls
Footsteps of the lone seeker,
Echoed through the ally.

Eyes that were lit,
Eyes that were still searching.
Ears tuned to the shadows of the music,
She walked, through the ally.

Venturing in a place never been before,
Listening to a sound lost in the crowd.
Ears, not as intense as the heart –
Walking the path along her red string.

And closing towards that deafening sound,
Playing with the keys, like a child,
Locking her heart unknowingly to that tune –
Leading her to The One.

They gazed at each other – Strangers.
Innocent love spread through the air.
Hearts stopping after the fall of crescendo,
Soul mates, as the last note hit.

Lampshade in The Night

A whisperless night engulfed the coast,
Cries of locked hearts swept the moon.
Waves that carried yesterday’s ghost,
A glimmer made through, cocooned.
Winds ate the secrets of the sand,
Treasures of the sea drifted ashore –
As tunes of the night merrily enveloped the sky.

Last year of school has begun. Within 4 months my school is going to finish off my syllabus of almost 18 chapters in each subject (There are a total of 5 subjects - 3 main & 2 auxiliary). So even I'll be in a hurry to finish of portions and try to do really really well in the AISSE!
And amidst all that, I hope I'll get the time to blog as well! :)

April 13, 2012

Looking out of this tinted glass,
As scared mountains pass,
Clouds that despeckeld light.
A canvas that was too far away to paint,
Skeletons of the pass shrivled with life,
As civilization slowy blurred the 'scape.

I think I now know what I want to become in the future.

I think it would rather be untruthful if I said I knew it all along, right from when I was a child, what I wanted to be when I grew up.

I attended a career counseling session in my dad’s office today. About a fortnight ago I wrote the aptitude test, based on which the psychologists analyze where my potential lays the most, and suggest the careers favoring the results accordingly.
My results indicated that I had the most potential in Engineering, Designing/Architecture and Bachelors in Science.
Right of the bat, just to be sure, I don’t want to do pure science because it’s all complete research and kind of monotonous (no offense). And I hated engineering before because that’s what everybody is doing today! (At least from the way I look at things) So I was kind of stung hard when I saw Engg. as my first option.
However the second one, mind me it truly did, surprise me! I knew architecture would somehow or the other take all the curving turns in the road and come to my life.
But designing?! No. Not even in my wildest dreams I ever thought of designing as a career option! Over the course of the session my psychologist told me how I could choose a career based on my potentials. She told me that I could take a vigorous course only on designing/architecture or do a under grad course in Electrics/Telecommunication Engineering and then, on a post grad level, do designing.

Frankly speaking I like designing. Especially related to web!
My psychologist even suggested me to attend the workshops, which are going to be held at IIT Bombay, that are based on various designing courses. I checked out the sites immediately and I was so happy when I read the topics on which they would lecture about!
There was a course which included Typography designs. The moment I read it, I literally jumped off my chair in utter joy! I LOVE typography! It’s so different and new and to think that there is a course specializing in only typography, I felt really happy. Happy enough to lift the guilt I was feeling for being an idiot in choosing Computer Science over Multimedia and Web Designing as my elective for my senior secondary level!

And yes, I think the fact that I wanted to choose designing as my career, was within me as a child.
I remember when I was a kid, when people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I said, “I want to be an inventor.” I said and “inventor” because I perceived an inventor as someone who “invented things”. So my lovely elders started telling me to be a scientist, since they told me it was scientists who ‘invented’ things. So I followed them blindly. Only later in my life I realized that scientists don’t practically “invent” things, they just do RESEARCH! And I hate research!
So then for a period of my life I was goal-less, until today.

I think I finally understood what I want to become now and what I always wanted to become, ever since I was a child. It was a Creator. I think I missed that word when I was a kid. I want to create things. It doesn’t matter if I do it from scratch or I pick up somebody’s leftovers. Because all I want to do is create.

And I finally realized it today.

118/366 - Because

Because we don't want to hurt them.
Because we don't want to drag them into the mess we're in.
Because we care for them.
We hide our true selves from them.

into the mystical abyss

into the mystical abyss by jathdreams

into the mystical abyss, a photo by jathdreams on Flickr.

I took this type of "natural gradation" of colours shot by accident.
I was primarily focusing on getting a good sunset shot. I was trying to get it without the bright colours of the sun off-toning my picture.
So I changed the settings to 1/4000s, ISO 1000 and tilted my camera vertical.
The first shot, totally blew me away because I never expected this to be the outcome!

The original shot wasn't like this. I had to rotate the picture by a 180 degree and saturate it a bit more. Also there was this wire cutting the picture and it looked totally ugly! so I had to "patch it up" in Photoshop! :D

Anyway the weekend is approaching! :D Hope you all have a great time shooting pics and having fun! :)

Let The Rain Come Down

I want to see it rain one day.
Because my world is now clad in dust.
I would love to see the rain wash it all away.
And bring and end to this holocaust.